Moon That Never Sets

The Summer warmth never seems to get longer,
ocean never smaller,
and the horizon grows ever longer
taking it's toll on my weary eyes.

My longing is lust, my body wants to melt and turn into dust!
How longing seems to seem, oh it's not exactly what it seems!
I tremble so terribly and my mind becomes it's weakest.

Moonlight never ends and it stays inside of me,
I can't wait for the darker shade of blue to fill that midnight sky.
The moon is shining through the clouds and all I perceive it to be
is a silhouette of our hands.
Together.

Heart hardens, it's growin' stronger,
my self esteem taller,
I even became the keyboard monger,
not wanting to say my goodbyes!

In the daylight world I don't know where I'm supposed to be.
My eyes are becoming hollow and people are asking me "why?"
I tell them I'd sail if only I could get through the ocean's weather.

I'd sail away into the ocean
I'd sail away if only the ocean were smaller.

Never ending moon!
Never ending moon!
You're coming to a close, and It's making me nauseous!
Never ending moon!
Don't collide with the end
of the earth,
not until we meet.
It seems I can't see
without you're silhouette.
Never ending moon!
Never ending moon!
Where does your phantom take me?
Oh, never ending moon.

I'm ready to sleep, it's 12:42 on a school night. I'm glad I vented out this atrocious piece of work. As unappealing to the eyes as it may be, it was so appealing to my heart.
Oh, God, ease the feeling I have and enflame that passion I have to love.
I don't wanna live without helping people. What meaning would I have to live without a struggle, and without self sacrifice..
but my distraction is so so beautiful.

Determination

Lesson of the day, kids!
I go to the Y and exercise with my buddies, Chanda, Beans, and Ethan on a regular basis and we're trying to become big monsters of men, of course.
Generally I use a flat bench press and bench on my own.
If I ever use heavy weight, Ethan or Chandler will spot me.
Ethan, preferably, Chanda always drips sweat on your face when you're trying to be strong.
So, today, I need a heavy duty work out with heavy weight to build strength and mass.
Instead of doing flat bench, I decide to do incline, which is much more difficult than flat bench. =S
The first set, I take the bar, put 45 lb weights on each end and bench for 10 reps.
The 2nd set,(this is where Chanda comes in) we add 10 lbs to each end.
I do 8 repetitions easy.
3rd set, Chanda puts ten more lbs on each side.
I do 8 repetitions, not as easily, but the job gets done.
I decided I was through, but Chanda decided I was just beginning.
Chanda takes 25 lbs and puts them on each end.
I do four repetitions.
I'm exhausted, holding the weight above me and steadily moving downward starting the fifth and final rep.
I struggle, hard, trying to push the weight above me.
The only words I hear are from Chandler: "Don't give up!" "Keep going!" "Be strong!" and other choice words I'll leave out. x)
See, the reason for a spotter when you're working out is to make sure you don't drop the weight and crush yourself. Most spotters would pick the weight up by now, causing you to fail.
Chandler, on the other hand, tells me to stay determined and to keep pushing.
Finally the weight is up. I won.
Lesson of the day, kids! Determination is key! Stay the course, stand steadfast.
If you stay determined, you're probably going to make it.

As far as I'm concerned, every day struggles will help shape my emotions.
The more I push myself, the more I will understand how hard it is to endure through something.
The more I will understand our human emotions.
Maybe struggling will help me to love people more, to have a different perspective on people.

Hammock of Stars

-2 AM-

*My eyes are heavy and my mind is, too.
I filled the day with things I didn't do.
I close my eyes, a sleepy daze
My body enters a dark blue haze.
I walk a lunar field
my pillow and blanket are my shield.
I build my hammock from the stars
and dream of take 5 candy bars.
Celestials swing my makeshift bed
and whisper words of wind into my head. *

Thank God for the gift of sleep.
Thank God for the angels who kiss my mind and give me rest.
Relaxation is on it's way. I need a break from this world.
Dreams give me that due vacation.

Noppera-bō

I've come to translate the story of the Noppera-bo into my life.
A man is walking down Akasaka road where he comes across a beautiful woman on the side of the road.
The woman is face down, weeping. The man feels compelled to console this beautiful woman.
As he arrives beside the woman, he lays his hand on her shoulder and tells her he is there for her and he wants her to be happy again.
The woman stops crying and lifts her head.
The man is shocked. Shocked to find that the weeping woman has no face.
Terrified, the man runs further down the road.
The man comes across a soba vendor.
The soba vendor is fat and is wearing colorful clothes. The soba's aroma fills the man with comfort again.
He is happy that he is back in the comfort of a normal situation.
The man tells the soba vendor about the faceless woman he encountered on the side of the road.
The soba vendor poors steaming noodles into a wooden bowl for the man, and lifts his head.
As the man looks to the soba vendor, he finds that he, too, has no face.

Noppera-bo, also known as Mujina. It is a ghost that appears normal and may even compel you to come closer to it, but once you truly see the Noppera-bo, it's face dissappears.
I can't help but to feel like I become close to Mujina's every day of my life. Come close to people whos faces dissappear.

I myself will try not to become such a faceless ghost.